to the boy who hates me so much..
sorry but i don’t know how to hate a person
if you hate me because of who i am; then its not my fault
i can give my own opinion and you can give yours
my stupidity is not being me
i don’t really show “ME” or the real “I” online
its too shallow
my emotions keep changing and its not always “sad” or “empty” or “happy”
as yours too
but you would not know me through that or through this blog.
but then again, i love you; i love those people who hate me.
its simply because i made their day challenging and i am not that ordinary
well, thanks.
your bitch friend.
where do i go from here..?
Tifa said 1 month ago:
I wish you the best of luck, Bords. There is indeed a lot of pressure on your shoulders but try not to think too much about what’s at stake. Isipen mo nlan ham yan. Jok. Focus on what you need to do and give it your best shot. That’s all you can do with all that setbacks. Or even if you call that a setback. Paranoia? Joke. I say you have a dilemma in your hands. Mahirap nga yan. Good luck nalan with your decision making. I’m sure you’ll pull through. Aun jam jAm. Im skeptic nga since last week. ahaha. amp kc. Information overload din ako ngayon. Waha. Sana walang task mamaya para laro na naman. :)
what i am saying right now:
Now i need my own moral support. i wish i also have someone i can ran on to. but guess what, i don’t have anyone. i only have myself. there is a lot of pressure going in my life today. and my love life is in hot water. that is really not a matter. but i have a very BIG problem of my own. i just really need to focus on my own misery business. i need to finish this mess, i need to ditch away all of my problems. i have so many things to do just to make things normal again. i wish i haven’t lost my direction. i need to clarify all the things perhaps, fixing myself first is the best way to start my transformation. so now, I need to have plans in the future. I guess I’ll just have to post it on my another blog.
i knot that the title have nothing to do with my blog, i just lack the inspiration to put so.
“and i don’t want the world to see me, cause i don’t think that they’d understand when everything’s made to be broken, i just want you to know who I am.”
it’s the last chance to feel again..
When I love you,
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking,
It’s the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay
You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train when it’s too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay
You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell something that ain’t real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late
You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain’t real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again.
