RePLY.. :D
You know what? Everybody lie to themselves. including me. I can be a great pretender sometimes. A sinner and a saint. You feel empty, but of course! i sometimes appear to be happy, but I simply dunt give the matter much thought.. But my eyes betray the sadness that even I dunt know I carry in my soul.
Yeah, you’ve got a point. You let fate decide for you. But we are different, and the only thing that we have
in common is that we have the same gender. I dunt let fate decide for me. I’m a man of few words. [ or should i say WOMAN ] I work for myself, I always lead the group, I dunt talk shits, I act as soon as possible. I dunt work for others and I dunt follow anyone’s orders but mine. I do what I wanna do.
We pity each other. Again. PITY. haha. but, it’s ok with me. I dunt held grudges. Maybe i pity you, IN A WAY that maybe when I look into your eyes, I will see the infinite bitterness that i have seen in everyone’s eyes, Which i know they weren’t prepared to acknowledge. In fact, at first i also want to be a good friend of yours. `coz we have had the same experiences in our life. You can say that your experience is much worse than mine. i dunno. But still, you have a communication with “THE GUY YOU TRUST.” ME? nothing. not a word. not a THING! haha. but it’s ok. im fine now. =] i cant even remember his voice anymore.
I dunt want to say “GET A LIFE!” coz that’s a bit harsh, and.. Your a woman, vulnerable as ever. I am once, LIKE THAT. I always go to the dark shadows and lay dormant. I talk to nobody but myself. I’ve pathetically wasted my potentials. I ridicule failure, in short.. I RIDICULE MYSELF.
” .. WHAT THE EYE DOESN’T SEE, THE HEART DOESN’T GRiEVE OVER…”
Please stop being such a loner. Cant you change that? At least try [ im sorry ]. Because if you stay like that, you wont see the beauty of life. You say that you u look on things the artistic way, but how? When you dunt even go out.
Yeah, we are both women. But we have different personality, I’m the stereotype little freak
and your the emoish loner girl japan. virgo and scorpio. anway, i could careless if our horoscope oppose each other, if I want you as a friend. then i’ll make a move. and i’ll treasure you just like everyone else.
Magulo ako. [ ilan beses na sinsbe sken un. ] I hope you get what im sayin. hahaha. We can know each other better if we want to, fate is not going to work by itself, it’s in the people’s hand. It wont move unless you work on it.
i want you as a friend and PERIOD. no pities, insecurities, grudges.
hmmm.
[ your'e a good critic, so am i. ] [ you're a little bit perfectionist, im not ( buh i want to) ] [ you're good, im bad. >:) ] haha. kiddin. :)
i see right through people, i know you do too. but we have our own ways, i already know yours. =]
and, you know wut? this song really suits you well ” .. BECAUSE A GiRL LiKE YOU iS iMPOSSiBLE TO FiND..”
someone must be really lucky to have you.. you are unique.
coz a guy like you is impossible to find..
The best thing ’bout tonight’s that we’re not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I’d never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold on to your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find…
interview [incubus] this was ages ago. :)
How Incubus left Ozzfest behind. Frontman Brandon Boyd tells EW.com about the band’s evolution from metal to pop
In the nü-metaling, punk-popping universe of rock radio, Incubus are an anomaly. The Calabas, California, group began as a nominal metal band, playing Ozzfest twice. But their hits — ”Drive” from their last album, ”Nice to Know You,” and ”Wish You Were Here” from their latest, ”Morning View”– are neither nü nor especially metallic.
Instead, they’re thickly textured rock, with pop melodies that made them ”TRL” favorites — and a sense of groove that led Moby to declare Incubus one of his favorite bands and invite them on his Area One tour last year. In the midst of their current tour, Incubus’ thoughtful hunk of a frontman, Brandon Boyd, tells EW.com about finding inspiration from Ani DiFranco, being a sex symbol, and fitting in with the new wave of rock and pop.
Given what you guys sound like now, does it ever seem crazy to you that you played Ozzfest?
[laughs] It even seemed crazy to us while we were doing it. But in a really weird way, playing Ozzfest helped remind us what we were and the things that we were meant to do, as opposed to the things we were not meant to do. Ozzy and Queens of the Stone Age were standouts, but most of the other bands were very forgettable. Still, they remind you there are enough bands doing THIS — with a big exclamation point and arrow pointing at the specific genre. So we said, Why don’t we concentrate on things that inspired us when we were a lot younger, like Zeppelin and the Doors, and on things we haven’t heard before in rock music, such as some of the Eastern influences.
Your lyrics seem to come from a different place than a lot of current rock bands. Which songwriters do you admire?
When I was growing up, my parents played Neil Diamond, Andrew Lloyd Webber, and Abba, and my older sister would listen to the Go-Gos and Journey and stuff like that. I liked the music and everything, but I didn’t pay much attention to the lyrics.
That’s probably a good idea.
Right. But I’ve been very influenced by Ani DiFranco. She’s an amazing lyricist. The first time I saw her was at the Troubadour in Los Angeles. I was standing right in front of her, and I remember really hearing what she was saying, and going, wow, That girl knows what she’s talking about. She had a way of saying important things in extremely clever ways. Right around the same time I was being introduced to some inspiring authors, people like Tom Robbins, Charles Bukowski, and Kurt Vonnegut.
Though you guys seem pretty serious and spiritual, a large proportion of your audience seems to be young girls. How do you feel about being a sex symbol?
There has been a contingent of young screaming women but none of us are gonna complain. If they’re there and they’re feeling it in whatever form that they’re feeling it, that’s fine with us. When women first showed up at the concerts, it had been years and years with just guys at our shows — so it was a nice surprise. As far as getting sick of the sex symbol whatever thing, we don’t pay much attention to what’s being said about us. Knock wood, I have yet to see it affect us or me adversely.
Tell me about the acoustic version of the song ”Pardon Me” [from 1999's ''Make Yourself'']. That was the first time I remember really hearing you guys on the radio?
We released [the rock version of] ”Pardon Me” as our first commercial single and it didn’t do very well. [Guitarist Mike Einziger] and I had been entertaining each other with acoustic versions of our songs, almost as a joke. Then we had a few hours off and we went into the studio in Chicago and just recorded that version of the song with a bunch of other ones from the same record. We just did it live; there’s lots of mistakes and it’s very raw. Then our label released it, and it made the rock version make more sense to people.
Did it teach you something to see the stripped-down version of your song succeed?
It was flattering that when people could actually hear the song — hear the lyric, hear the melody — they liked it better. We saw that people reacted more positively towards us when we simplified, when we were doing less. And that’s kind where we always wanted to go anyway.
You guys are a rock band who have been able to connect with the ”TRL” audience. Now teen pop is fading, some garage-type stuff is coming up — what do you make of the current state of rock and pop?
Exactly what you just said. The whole teen pop thing was as much a favor as it was a curse. I think the reasons it was a curse were self-evident. But the reason those teen artists did everyone else a favor was because they acted as a contrast to the real music that was going on. It was so perfectly clear what was the opposite of what they were doing, hence the rise of garage-type acts or even stuff that’s more in the middle, where we fall.
And how will the new climate affect you?
We have yet to create our best record. I love the records we’ve created, but I know that our defining work, our ”Joshua Tree,” has yet to be seen. So it’s very exciting. I’m also really excited about bands like the White Stripes and Black Rebel Motorcycle Club and the Hives. Those are bands that are that really f—ing cool; they’re very retro. They’re doing stuff that’s been done before, but for some reason I’m really, really happy that bands like that are being recognized right now.
Where are you with a follow-up to ”Morning View”?
We’ve all been writing our little parts, like we always do. I’m always writing lyrics. Probably the most thought that’s gone into it is wondering where we’re going to do it this time. We did the last one in a beautiful 12,000 square-foot mansion in Malibu. How can we outdo that? Maybe we can find a castle in Spain to do our record in. I want to record the vocals wireless on a beach, frolicking in the waves. And hopefully not get electrocuted.
this is how i feel..
i pity this girl, the fact that she can’t withstand the pain of bein heartbroken. if i were her (kun ako sia!!), i could have lost my soul. im neither strong nor intelligent, but still she keeps on movin forward. Sometimes, i feel a pang of admiration fow the subsequent events that happened to her so called LIFE. i maybe numb most of the time, but when i have read her blogs, i felt sorry fow her.
Fow me this girl can somehow become my idol, because i think she’s good at everythin. But i think shes kinda upset bout me, 
buh its not my fault. I ALSO LOVE HER MAN. ouchies.
All i can do, fow now i think, is to forget this guy. because this girl keeps on bothering me. Last night im skeptic and resentful. now. IM SORROWFUL. Coz time reaches its filthy hand out over the future and i know I -we- have to face it, maybe setting him free will be the right decision. But what about him? i know he love me truly, i dunt know what will be next.
In this decision, i have to consider OUR feelings. If I let him go, would he open his door to his past? would they live happily ever after, cause if not. I’LL TAKE HIM BACK(for sure!)
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take care coz i dont! :)
We’ll Sing Hallelujah
Somehow everything’s gonna fall right into place,
If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday.
If only time flew like a dove,
Will god make it fly faster than I’m falling in love.
This time we’re not giving up,
Let’s make it last forever,
Screaming “Hallelujah”.
We’ll make it last forever.
Holding onto patience, wearing thin,
I can’t force these eyes to see the end.
If only time flew like a dove,
Well we could watch it fly, and just keep looking up.
This time we’re not giving up,
Let’s make it last forever,
Screaming “Hallelujah”.
We’ll make it last forever.
And we’ve got time on our hands.
[And we've got time]
Got nothing but time on our hands.
Got nothing but, got nothing but.
[And we've got time]
Got nothing but time on our hands.
This time we’re not giving up,
Oh, let’s make it last forever,
Screaming “Hallelujah”.
[ paramore - hallelujah ]
fences :)
I’m sitting in a room
Made up of only big white walls
And in the halls
There are people looking through
The win.. the window
Though they know exactly what we’re here for
Don’t look up just let them think
There’s no place else you’d rather be
You’re always on display
For everyone to watch and learn from
Don’t you know by now
You can’t turn back
Because this road is all you’ll ever have
It’s obvious that you’re dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera’s lying
And oh oh open wide
Cause this is your night so smile
Cause you’ll go out in style
You’ll go out in style
If you let me I could
I’d show you how to build your fences
Set restrictions
Separate from the world
The constant battle that you hate to fight
Just blame the limelight
Don’t look up just let them think
There’s no place else you’d rather be in now
You can’t turn back
Because this road is all you’ll ever have
It’s obvious that you’re dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera’s lying
And oh oh open wide
This is your night so smile
Yeah yeah you’re asking for it
With every breath that you breathe in
Just breathe it in
Yeah yeah well you’re just a mess
You do all this big talking
So now let’s see you walk in
I said let’s see you walk in
Yeah yeah well you’re just a mess
You do all this big talking
So now let’s see you walk in
I said let’s see you walk in
It’s obvious that you’re dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera’s lying
And oh oh open wide
You’re oh oh open wide
You’re oh oh open wide
Cause you’ll go out in style
You’ll go out in style
[ paramore - fences ]
thats for the best..
” ..if someone accuse you of lying.. dunt get too affected, because you know you never lie. you just dunt tell him everything.”’
Someone whom i know for a long time asked me a question yesterday. I was kinda surprised so it takes me a second to come up with an answer. My heartbeat pulsing. I’m thinking for the right words. This situation makes me sick. I think very hard, and came up with nothing. My mind is still working hard for an answer.
I wish the earth would just swallow me and take me back to the world i know. I was alone with him. Though im in a very sticky situation im still trying to maintain my cool. Though he was voluptuous as ever. I miss that fine structure, i miss the way how he always held me in his fine, long arms. I never thought i would be reminiscing the past.
Some feelings still remain here in my heart. But i dunt want to remember & feel that anymore. At that moment, i had a brainstorming thought i remember how miserable i WAS when he left. And my answer is … “I dunt want to be with you anymore, there is someone else.”
Take that! I wish i would never regret what i said. Buh, its the right thing, right? or left? haha. I have another man in my life, though our feelings for each other is not official we keep on moving forward. 6 months is quite long ayt? He loves me, and i Love him. I dunt need my ex partner anymore, i have sacrifice almost everything, suffered soo much, lost everything when im with him. When i say everything, it includes my very treasure. yea, thats right.
Then there, he always bring up a subject. Always bringin up the past. I dunt want to talk to him anymore. Coz’ everytime i have any strings attached to him i get so miserable. Sometimes i wish he would just stay away, AWAY.
The question he’s asking me is.. ” Can we start again? ” fuck. I want to cry, i want to tell him how miserable i WAS without him. Now i have grown on my own, now that im MISS INDEPENDENT i dunt want to be attached to him anymore. He have hurted me so much. Its so hard to forgive him.
I could live without him. I know i could. I have a new life now. A new personality. A new Fatima. Varnished and stronger as ever. The new me. Then there, his emotional outburst. I’ve awaken his anger. And right there at that moment, I AM DOMINATING. Im winning his game, having the last laugh. HE IS SUCH A LOSER! I cant remember fallin to a person like that. haha!
He said that i lied to him thrice, and he cant take that for granted, boo! whatever i never ever told you a lie asshole. And i know that, IF YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE. YOU SHOULD FORGIVE THEM EVEN IF IT HURTS SO MUCH. i wade goodbye via emoticon. take care coz i dunt care! [we're just chatting in yahoo messenger with our webcam on] I never lie to you, i just dunt tell you everything.
Now, im missing my present LOVE, ************toot************* The boy i ever wanted my whole life. The one i want to spend my entire life with. Im loving him for quite a while. Thank God he came! Didnt i tell you he was and still is my savior? my KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR.
He shaped the new me, the new FATIMA. And im so thankful that GOD has brought a very beautiful blessing into my life. I always thank GOD for bringing Darryl into my life. Yeah, that right. He who shot me with an arrow in my heart. OH MY GOD!! i really love him, just like how you love youre parents, my love for him can make mountains move, make the color blue become yellow. haha! whatever, i’ll do everything just for him.
Ok, read between the lines. You could get something in here. :)
PAST IS PAST, THERE IS A REASON THEY ARE CALLED PAST, AND THERE IS ALSO A REASON WHY THERE IS A PRESENT AND FUTURE. isnt that cool? everyone is given a chance because its a matter of choice. you have a choice. everyone has it. SO, LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE, MOVE ON AND ON AND ON. There will come a point in your life when you’ll realize who matters the most, those who does not and those who will not anymore. Dunt think too much bout them, there is a good reason why they are not in youre SO CALLED “present life”. You dunt need to understand everything. You just have to accept the fact that you are not included in they’re life, and you also, should remember that if you are not included in they’re life, they are not in yours. get it? Even in your fragile heart and mind. Also, learn not to give too much, learn to accept things as they are, thats just a part of a cylce of life. If you cant understand it, just learn accept the fact of its nature. Also, dunt expect too much. Dont think that they’ll do everything, just because youre so willing to do everything that much for them.
Always live youre life to the fullest. A good friend of mine always remind me that, LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO SPEND ALONE IN MISERY. Thats why try to be happy, at least try.
** DO stress out everything.
** DO smile. Remember that nothing can bring you down, neither YOURSELF!
** DO think positively, ” LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE”
** DO find the best thing that will fit you. Dunt settle for any uncertain things.
** DO GO OUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS, always remain occupied with things,
** DO, remember that problems are just tests from LORD GOD, testing how strong your faith is, always pray.
** DO, Let your family accompany you with things, let your friends know all your problems and let them confide in you. That will strengthen your bonds.
AND LASTLY, ALWAYS ASSURE YOURESELF THAT SOMEONE WILL ACCEPT YOU FOR WHAT YOU CAN AND WHAT YOU CAN’T BE. ^_^
